dissolve me

iam idling down this razors edge, this flavor in my mind, a desire for my own time, rewind, a life seen from inside a cage -
-savior; reinvented moods elated crisp, turned pages scream out but no sound, nobody's around, and temptation meets my crumpled frustration as others crawl and sprawl wrapped amongst the dead, I am alive, but how? survive this time of deceit, believe the tongues that speak of desperate fusion & music's relentless pulsating, throbbing like a sexual demon, do you care? i do but don't but can't and won't betray your trust, at last sincerity remains, the dead speak to children running past me, having been there before in youth i couldn't translate, but now i can relate, and in my own desperate measure, a long lasting fast that left me hollow, retreating, defeated, facing the momentary lapse of treason, this scrambled egg breakfast of words has dissolved me like the grains & water in my spoon, cooked and extracted, tie off & inject, to cure what ails & sideline this byline i am out of time, i am out of time, i am out of time.

-gks/2010